Fun May Pictures

I couldn't leave out some cute pictures from May. Not only did we have the end of school but we ended up moving over Memorial Day back in with Blaine's parents until he is done with school and we know where we end up.

We went to the cemetery to put in some little lights that the boys got for Emily's grave. Only one actually made it there in one piece but that is okay.

Cameron is always so sweet when we go to the cemetery

I love these two boys and miss my little girl so much

Cameron loves playing with his shot glasses. Yep we start our kids out young. Blaine collects shot glasses from places where we go.

For Ryan's birthday he decided that he wanted to go to Red Robin for dinner even though daddy couldn't come. I felt bad but Ryan was still happy and we told them it was his birthday but not to sing to him.

Poor Ryan had to get a few fillings at the dentist. We had to give him really gross medicine and then wait an hour for it to take affect before they would take him back. All the drugged kids had to put on these vest and stay sitting he was not happy about the meds or the orange vest. It was a little weired taking him back to the doctor and not seeing him again till he was done. While he was out they did a teeth cleaning as well. Granted it is not like some of my other friends who has given there kids to something serious like heart surgery it was fillings and a teeth cleaning but still I was very happy when I got to go back and see him.

Me and my little man just hanging out

Before dinner one day we couldn't find Cameron. We where yelling around the house for him we even looked outside. A few minuets later this is what we found in the kitchen.

The weekend we moved I found Ryan out in Paps truck with all the hats that he could find on. At least he was staying out of trouble even if I couldn't find him for a while.

I love this little cookie face kid.

Playing racing game with his brother. (or at least that is what he thinks)

Cameron hanging out with dad one night after dad got home from school

It's so fun that Cameron likes to take pictures and he has such a great smile

Sorry

So my last post was harsh I know just know it wasn't directed at any of you current readers. It was to someone who no longer has access to my blog but I feel better now that I said it even though I would never have the guts to say it to the person who I am frustrated at.

Going Private

I really really really didn't want to go private and have avoided it for a few years now however it was in the best interest of our family and my sanity to be selective on who can read our blog. Keep in mind and I have said this many time before that this blog like many others is like a journal for me and I will write some of my feelings from time to time. Wither or not my feelings are correct or if you as the reader agree with them it is still how I feel. Sometimes I am being a girl sometimes it is nice to hear that I am not a lone with things that I go through and feel sometimes. With that being said let me clear a few things up that seem to be bothering some or I guess one for all I know but if they are feeling this way more of you who have read this blog may be feeling the same.
1st: Yes we have moved back in with my in laws and yes hell has frozen over because it was MY idea. Blaine is going to school and working full time and we would like to try and save money. Is it ideal no is it nice that we are able to do this YES. I not only have help with the boys at night but we have a yard again and my kids would live outside if I would let them. The last time we lived here it was under some pretty crazy circumstances. I was very sick and prego with Emily, Blaine was traveling to Sacramento once a month for about a week. I went into labor at 25 weeks and 5 days almost died and ended up loosing our daughter. A few months after that my father in law has a massive heart attack that I caught and ended up having a triple bypass. So ya that would cause some massive I guess you could call it tension. As long as no one tries to die this time around I think things will go a lot better.

2: Trying to get pregnant. Not that it is any ones business but after my miscarriage last July life hasn't been normal for me. The fallowing will have TMI so don't say that I didn't warn you if you would like to stop reading now.
After my miscarriage last July and BTW when I got pregnant last July I WAS on birth control so we wern't trying. I have not had a normal period. There are some months that I have nothing for two or three months. Then there are months that I bleed for 38 days have two days with nothing thinking that it has stoped then it starts right back up again. I I would bleed for 60 days with a few days off here and there. NOT FUN!!! plus I am Iron deficient so I get really weak and have no energy. People have been telling me for a while to go to the Dr and get it checked out.
I have been nervous to go see my OBGYN for my PAP because all of mine have come back abnormal for years had to have a colposcopy and they said that if I kept getting these that it was a sign that I was a pre-cancer thing. The fact that we don't have medical insurance on top of that made it rough. Yes I saved money and went to the DR.
He told me that I had PCOS. I thought it was funny since I have had three kids. He told me that I got lucky and that the reason they didn't catch it sooner is because I have been on birth control since I was 15. He told me that he could put me back on birth control but that wouldn't fix the problem so he would do some tests and then if those tests came back okay that he would start me on progesterone.
The reason they are putting me on progesterone is not to try and get pregnant right now. It is to kick start my hormones into working normally again. I am not on or am I going on Clomid in the near future. They are two very different meds. No I have not been on birth control for a year now and still have not gotten pregnant. Do we want another baby yes on some days am I ready for one right now yes on others the awnser is HECK NO! Are we trying to get pregnant right now NO! are we trying to fix me so I can have a normal life and when we are ready for another baby we will have one YES.
Once again what I have said before Blaine and I are in the same mind set that when another baby is suppose to join our family it won't matter what or if we are on birth control because we don't control it. We have gotten pregnant on birth control before and if Heavenly Father wants us to have that spirit we will have it. Just in case you are wondering this is that our plan is. Do we need your approval no, do we want to hear if you don't agree with us sure but do it in a nice way please.
So now that all of that is cleared up I will keep this blog private for a while if you have friends that want to read it send me there e-mail address. I have appreciated all the uplifting comments and support that I have gotten over the years. It is nice to know that I am not always alone with things that I have or am going through. I know my problems are nothing compared to others but when I put it on paper it makes me feel better.

From Mrs. Kupfer

I can't tell you how much I am going to miss Mrs. Kupfer. Ryan loves her so much and did so good in her class this year. Mrs. Kupfer made a little book for all the kids in the class so they can remember Kindergarten. It had pictures from different activities from the year as well as some of the poems that they learned.

Ryan has the funniest smiles sometimes

Ryan with Mrs. Kupfer and Randy the Rectangle book. His class wrote this book for a district wide contest and they won 1st place. Ryan's page said that Randy Rectangle likes to play with Hot Wheels. I know big surprise right and he even drew the car on the page.

It is so fun to see stuff that they do at school

I am pretty sure these pictures are from Fitness Day that the entire school did

The picture I think they did at the beginning of school. The bus behind him gets all the pictures of the kids on bus.

Mrs. Kupfer's class was in the school talent show. Ryan didn't want to get up and do it that night with the class but he knew the poems just as good as the other kids. So he was a helper with Mrs. Kupfer. The pictures I took that night didn't turn out so I was super excited when this one was in his little book.

This was the awards night when the kids won 1st place for Randy Rectangle. These where the kids that where able to make it that night. Amber was the one that went up on the stage to get the ribbon but it was still really cool when they announced Mrs. Kupfers Kindergarten class. There was a lot of cheering.

Some of the kids from the field trip to the dino museum

Painting in class

Brianna, Ryan and Zachary with a super cute bunny. I was surprised that Ryan would get this close to it. He came so far this year with stuff he wouldn't normally do.

Look at how happy that little boy is yep the grouch is mine. He doesn't like the hat thing so not surprised that he isn't sporting his turkey however when I picked him up that afternoon he had it on.

More fitness day pictures looked that they had a lot of fun but I was sick that day so I wasn't able to go

The kindergartners get to dress up and do a costume parade for the school. Ryan isn't big on dressing up so he was an army man

What a great catch

This was Brianna's, Rachel, Ryan and Sophi's plant

I asked Ryan what was his favorite poem that he learned and he said that it was Breakfast. I want to put his favorites on here so he can remember them so here we go



Breakfast

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall ,Humpty Dumpty had a great fall, all the kings horses and all the kinks men , had scrambled eggs for breakfast again.

Toothpaste

There is toothpaste on my fingers, there is toothpaste on my nose, there is toothpaste on the mirror in a hundred squiggly rows.

Every time I squeeze the toothpaste, it sprays north and west and south. There is toothpaste almost everywhere except inside my mouth!

Higglety Pigglety

Higgley pigglety pop! The dog has eaten the mop; the pig's in a hurry, the cat's in a flurry, Higglety pigglety pop!

Lazy Jane

Lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy Jane, she wants a drunk of water so she waits and waits and waits and waits and waits for rain.

Keep a Poem in Your Pocket

Keep a poem in your pocket and a picture in your head and you'll never feel lonely at night when you're in bed. The little poem will sing to you the little picture bring to you a dozen dream to dance to you at night when you're in bed. So keep a picture in your pocket and a poem in your head and you'll never feel lonely at night when you're in bed.

This year was a great year for Ryan. It was his first year at a "normal" school in a "normal" classroom and I know it wasn't always easy but he did such a good job and so did his teacher. It was fun for me to help out a few days a week in the classroom and get to see how he does things at least for a little bit during the day. It was fun to see the other kids as well and they would yell hi Ryan's mom. I hope that next year is just a fun. I know we will both miss Mrs. Kupfer but don't worry she isn't rid of us forever. Thank goodness for swimming lessons during the summer and hopefully Cameron will be able to be in her class in a couple of year. Thank you again Mrs. Kupfer for all your hard work.

Last Day of School

Ryan's last day of school this year was on the 26th of May. They had a nice party who are we kidding they had a party almost everyday last week. That kind of threw Ryan off because the routine wasn't the same but he did pretty good. I really wish that his teacher could just fallow him to 1st grade but I know that she can't. Mrs. Kupfer was the best teacher ever and Ryan gave her a run for her money sometimes. She really did everything that she could to help him to grow and understand things. She has hand picked his teacher for next year so that hopefully they will work well together. I hope that she is still around when Cameron is in kindergarten. Ryan will be doing swimming lessons again this year with her and I am praying that they go better this year cuz last year wasn't the greatest. I wasn't going to do swimming with him but they talked about it and he said that he wants to so for the month of June we will still get to see Mrs. Kupfer so we are still happy.

For the end of the year gift Mrs. Kupfer put together pictures of Ryan and some of the fun things they did at school along with the poems that they memorized so I will try to scan some of those pictures in the next few days after I get some stuff moved.

Thank you Mrs. Kupfer and Mrs. H for all the hard work that you did this year and making this year so successful for Ryan. I really have become great friends with Mrs. Kupfer I loved going in a few days a week to help her out with things in the classroom and coming to the party's and field trip.

Dino Muesum Field Trip

I was able to go and help out on the Kindergarten field trip to the Southwest Museum or as the kids know it the dinosaur museum. Ryan was really excited because we got to go on a big school bus. He hasn't been on a bus in a year and when he did ride the bus to school it was the little bus so he was SUPER excited that he got to ride on the BIG bus.

Mom and Ryan ready to hit the road. He doesn't look excited at all does he

Waiting with my group for the waterfall. I was going to have a partner and another kid Ryan's friend Trevor however he threw up on the bus so it was just the 4 of us for a while until the nurse brought over another outfit for the poor kid. They did catch up to us towards the end though.

We got to touch and learn about dino teeth. Ryan was excited to hold a T-Rex tooth he has been into Dino Dan lately on NOGGIN so he knew what she was talking about.

How big is your foot?

In a hut

I really didn't think that Ryan would go for this but he went in the jail and even let me get a picture. He wouldn't let me close the door but hey I was happy with what I got. We didn't go for the gold cuz it was sooooo crowded cuz I think there was a couple of other school there at the same time.

Yep that is Ryan on TV. They have a green screen set up and all the kids love this.

My little scientist

Looking at x-rays he thought that was pretty cool

It was a fun day at the museum. Afterwards we went Pioneer park for lunch however we found out that they had irrigated so that wasn't an option so we headed to a park close to the school. The kids had a lot of fun but it was really hot but I guess the most important thing is that the kids had fun.

Ryan's 6th Birthday Party

For Ryan's birthday he decided that he wanted to have a big party. He wanted a Peter Piper Pizza party but he wanted to invite a ton of friends as well. So we told him that he could have a pizza party but he would only be able to have a few friends and no presents from us, or we could do a party at the park and he could have as many friends as he wanted so he went for the park and a lot more friends. He invited about six kids from school. He wanted like all 27 kids from his class but I told him not that many. So three kids from his class showed up Aubry, Rachel, and Trevor, Hollie and her grand kids and not to mention his cousins and Andrew plus his aunts and uncles. We had a ton of pizza and Ryan made out like a bandit with the gifts. Ryan was so excited to get his new Wii game Sports Resort that he hasn't stopped playing yet.

Ryan was having a lot of fun showing off how he learned to swing all by himself

Ryan is a little obsessed with traffic signs. He decided this year that he wanted a stop sign cake so I googled it to see if anyone else had done one and came up with this. Ryan and Gma found the car candles and we used a couple of his wood signs and added it to his cake. I have to admit it is the best cake ever. He wanted chocolate so of course that is what Gma made him.

Ryan got all of his candles out on the first try.

Ryan got a lot of fun stuff for his birthday he has some great friends to come to the park in May when it is hot. We really made sure that we got out of the heat before 1:00 but don't get me wrong it was still hot outside.

More and more good stuff

My Baby turned 6

Happy Birthday to my 1st born. My RyRy I can't believe that you are six years old already. You have taught me soooo much in your six years of life. You have come so far in your little life. You have really come a long way with your autism I am so proud of you. You still have your issues with being in front of people and having a hard time focusing. We are still working on it. You know so much that I don't know. You know how many canals we have to go over to get anywhere. You know all of your traffic signs and how to get anywhere on any freeway. You have such a cute personality you are starting to get a long better with your brother and you keep begging for a baby girl. You can be such a good helper when you want to. You remind me so much of your Uncle Ryan you do some of the same things and I know you would have loved your Uncle. Thank you for letting me be your mom. Happy Birthday baby boy.

Camping

Baine had a day off of school for teacher in service so that worked out good to do a camping trip.

We had one planned for two weeks earlier but it was so windy and cold that we postponed it till it was nicer. We got a tent for Christmas that we haven't used yet. I like the heat that comes with sleeping in the trailer. I said that we would try it. The boys had there own air mattress and then we had our queen one. We set up the DVD player in between the boys so they could watch the movies. Everyone was happy till it started to get colder. It was a nicer weekend to go camping but still got down to the 30's that night. Cameron got soooooo cold he ended up in our bed then by morning Ry was freezing as well so we had all four of us on our queen air mattress ya that was fun. Ryan decided that he was going to sleep in the trailer the next night so he can be warm and I was okay with that.

Ryan has had a fishing pole since his first time we went camping. It came with a little plastic fish attached to the end of it so it looks like they caught a fish. He has been fine with that and throwing rocks until now. Blaine threw his line in and caught a fish on his 1st cast. Ryan thought that was so cool and that he wanted to catch a fish as well. I told him that he already had a fish on his pole. He said no he wanted a real one. Great time to get out the weapons. He was getting a real hook on the end of pole. We told him that he had to be very very careful because it is very sharp and can really hurt someone.

We got everyone out of the way and he did his first cast all on his own. At first we thought he got it stuck on a rock but as he kept trying to get it in we saw that he had a fish on the end of it. That kid got a fish on his first try. He thought that was the coolest thing ever and he was hooked.

Ryan thought that he was pretty hot stuff and he was a fishing fool. He started catching them right and left and was super excited.

Cameron kept himself plenty busy with throwing rocks into the water. He loved it and the nice thing was that he didn't fall in like his brother did at his age. However it made fishing next to him not very fun cuz he has a great arm so the fish didn't want to come around. The only good thing is that no one on this trip was skunked and that hasn't happened in a while.

Ryan just kept pulling in more and more fish. Blaine would cast his out and then Ry would get another one on so Blaine would have to hurry and pull his line in so that he could help Ryan with his fish. Ryan caught the most on this trip with a total of 15 fish.

This picture has a little story behind it. Blaine got a picture of Ryan when he was about the same age as Cameron while we where fishing at this same lake. This was at Bog Tank around this same time of day we wanted to get as close as we could to the same picture. Now I have to find it and then we can do a comparison picture.

Taken May 14th 2011

Funny thing is this is the same rock. This was taken Aug 18th 2007. Looking at these two pictures of my two boys at the same age really make me realize how huge Cameron is.

My two cute boys on the little bridge at Bog Tank

I wanted to try and get a picture of Blaine and I but as you can see it didn't turn out that great.

A nice dirty picture of Cameron and mommy

Ryan is being such a good big brother and explaining to Cameron about the fire and how to throw things into the fire. What a good big brother and yes both of my boys take after both of there parents and are piros.