Ryan's 5th Birthday Party

Some fun pictures from Ryan's bowling party


We just had a small party with a couple of Ryan's friends and of course his cousins . The nice thing is the bowling ally did all the work. We had pizza, drinks and I got little bowling pin water bottles for the party favors. It was the most relaxing birthday party ever. The funny thing about our kids party is there are more adults than kids. I guess that is what happens when you have a big family. I think now as Ryan starts going to regular school that will change and we will have more kids.

Ryan telling everyone how to bowl

Ryan got some great gifts. Some games new scriptures, fishing pole, sleeping bag, and of course cars. Then Sunday when we had his cake he got his new bike. I think it will be a party that he always remembers.

My Baby is 5

Today my little Ryan is 5. I can't believe it he is a real kid now in a few months he will be going to a normal school going to a normal Kindergarten class. I am having a hard time wrapping my head around it. Ryan has mad such huge changes in his life in the last 5 years. Ryan has turned out to be such a polite happy boy. It's crazy I don't know where he got it from but he always wants to open doors for people says thank you for everything and is just an all around good kid. It is hard to think of where my life would be without him. I am so glad that he came into my life. He is named after my little brother Ryan who died when he was six. It is very interesting to see how much the two of them are alike. I think they had a little powwow in heaven before my Ryan came down and his Uncle Ryan taught him all the tricks.

For Ryan's birthday I wanted to do something super fun so I asked Ryan what he wanted to do and he said bowling. That is what we did we had a bowling party. Granted we had more adults than kids there but it was still fun. I will post some pics of that soon but I didn't want this day to go by without writing a little something to my little one. Happy Birthday little man you are going to be 5 every time you ask me for the next year. It will be so fun to see the new things that you figure out this next year of your life. Happy Birthday I love You.

Mothers Day

Mothers Day wasn't so fun for me this year. I was SICK! We have 9 am church and I made it though Sacrament meeting but then I had to get home. Ryan went home with Linda so he didn't care but I was sick. I guess the nice thing is that I took a 3 hour nap but it was because I had to. The nice thing was the day before we where able to go out to Maricopa to my Grant family party. Now I know this part gets confusing for some of you so ask me about it later.( keep in mind I have a lot of parents.) My Grant mom and dad bought a house in Maricopa a while ago to live closer to my sister and her family and brother and his family that live out there. Plus they got a smokin deal on a fabulous house. I being the bad daughter hadn't made the trek out there to see it yet. So we had a combined Mother's Day and Mom's birthday party at there new house. It was a lot of fun and lots of yummy food. The kids had fun running up and down the stairs and playing in the hot tub. Yes it was 90 something outside and the kids where in the hot tub but don't worry it wasn't hot they didn't have the heat on. The boys had a blast I didn't get pictures taken but I did get this one of all the boy grand kids that where in town playing. It was a water party and they all slept good that night. Mom also had everyone right something cute about there mom or wife and people had to guess who they where. Ryan's was that he liked going to target with me and getting cars. Cameron told me to STOP putting bows in his hair I AM NOT A GIRL!!! and Blaine to the story of when I first came to meet the family and I flushed my cell phone down the potty. (thanks for bring that back up hun) it was so fun to hear of everyone's stories. So I must say that was the highlight to my mothers day weekend.

Water Day

This year was the first year I was able to make it out to Ryan's school for WATER DAY. This first year I was prego and didn't want to go out in the sun. The next year I was working, One year I think I forgot no wait I had a newborn so I was determined to go this year. A couple days before water day we headed for Old Navy so Ry could pick out some new swimming stuff. A couple pairs of shorts and a swimming shirt so I didn't have to worry about sun screen at school. That afternoon while we where waiting for the bus I had a horrible migraine starting.

This is Ryan and is friend Ashton

I told Ryan that I might not be able to come to his school today for water day. Then the guilt trip started. "but mom you have to come to my school to take pictures of me." So I said we will see. The bus got there and and as he was walking on to the bus he said "okay mom see you soon to take pictures." Well I had to go. I loaded up on Excedrin and headed off to the school with Cameron in hand. We got there a little after 2:00 and got to see him running around like a crazy man. Ryan running through the sprinklers
After a while it seemed like things where getting crowded so his teacher went and got a hose and put it on the the little playground so just his class could play.

This is Ryan and his teacher Ms. Mary

Luckily there was shade so I could stand under it. Oh ya back story: the day before we had been at the Gila Valley Temple open house and even though we where only outside for a max of 15min I got FRIED.

Ryan and his friend Vance have been in the same class since the beginning.

The sun and I don't get along very well. So I was pretty sunburned and that was the cause of my migraine. When I get sunburned I get sick like sick sick in bed sick so I really try to stay out of the sun.

Vance getting Ryan

Blaine didn't want me to go to water day because he thought I would get more burnt and get really really sick. So that is why I was happy to find shade. Ms Mary and Ryan spraying the water
Cameron did pretty good. He was starting to get hot and jealous that he couldn't go and run in the water. They had snow cones for all the kids for snack. It was starting be the time to get ready to go home so I just took Ryan home with me so he didn't have to ride the bus for 45 minuets. His school is right behind Red Mountain High school but he has a 45 minuet ride each way.
I have to say all in all I am glad that I toughed it out and went because he was so excited to see us there and show off his water day.

Gila Valley Temple

A friend of mine on Facebook took this picture and I stole it off her page. I just thought that it was such a good picture.

Wednesday May 5th Blaine took the day off and we went with my grandparents up to Thatcher to see the Gila Valley Temple. We left the valley around 9:00 and our tickets where for 1:00ish. Surprisingly enough the boys did pretty good. Ryan loved going through the tunnel and going on the big bridge. He watched a couple of movies and was fine. Cameron did good only got mad once on the way up. Good news since we are going to dive to Colorado next month it gives up hope. Traffic was a little crazy but we got there around 12:30 and went to the chapel next door to see the movie that they have for you to watch before you went through the Temple. I went to the Snowflake Temple open house and stood in line FOREVER the ticket thing sounded dumb at first but it was very nice being able just to walk right in watch the presentation go through the temple and be done a lot sooner. My grandparents also went and brought a long a friend from there ward. Before you go into the temple they but little booties over your shoes to keep the carpet clean. I new Ryan wasn't going to go for that and as soon as he realized what everyone was in line for the freak out started. The little old lady put the shoes on my feet and next to her was an open chair so I sat Ryan down and pulled out a clean pair of socks from the diaper bag. I told the lady that they are clean and that he won't put the booties on he is Autistic and just to leave him alone. She did no problem no questions asked. It took Ryan a couple of minuets to calm down but he did. Cameron did pretty good until we got to the baptismal font. First Ryan thought that it was cool to see the big cows (I told them they where oxen) he said it was very pretty. Cameron wanted so bad to get in the water. Cameron loooooves the bathtub so he thought he had hit the jackpot with finding a huge bathtub he was wanting down and letting everyone in the room know it. Our Eternal Family (it was a little bright outside)

My gpa was in his electric wheelchair and did pretty good. There are some tight corners to maneuver around so that made life interesting. All in all it was a good trip and the boys did really good. I am so glad that Blaine was able to go with us not only because I don't think I could have handled both kids on my own but even though it wasn't a dedicated temple yet there is something special being in a temple with you entire family. That won't happen again for our family for a while or at least we go to another open house.My Grandparents

My Grandparents and there friend from the ward Pat
Ryan is such a good helper pushing gpa along

After the open house we went to a very yummy Mexican restaurant called Casa Manana. I wish they had one down here. I went to EA after I got out of high school. Man a lot has changed up there in the past 10 years go figure. The boys did really good waiting for our food. We had a little bit of a wait because they where so packed.
I think we went though 6 or seven bowls of chips but everyone stayed happy.Cameron playing patty cake with gma Bird.

Some fun cute pics

I am waiting for Cameron to wake up so I can go and tackle the pile of non fitting clothes in there closet. I figure while I am waiting I would post some cute pics from the past month or so.This is Ryan chillin after school. Since it has started to warm up he gets pretty pooped after school. He is defiantly turning into a big kid.Isn't that cute Ryan just lying around on his daddy. I would be careful Ry that could be a dangerous spot .We can't leave out Mr. Cameron he is pretending that he is eating. He only ate his puffy things though.Seems like most of the pics I have of Cameron is him eating. Oh well he's so dang cute most of the time.Ryan had water day at school a few weeks ago. (will post pics of that later) that morning I got him ready for school in his swimming suite. He kept asking me for an ice cream sandwich I said it was only 9:30 and you haven't eaten anything yet. So he asked for a corn dog. After he was done with that he said okay mom go get it. Go get what he said my ice cream sandwich you said I had to eat first. That is what I said so I gave it to him at least it wasn't the first thing that he ate.

So Much Is Happening

This is just a warning for any of you who read this. I turn my blogs into books and use them as journal type thing. This post is manly just for me so I can get things off my mind so read on if you don't mind talking about girl stuff and problems that girls go through.

So like this header says there is A LOT going on in my life right now. Some fun stuff is that we are getting ready to celebrate Ryan's 5th Birthday on Monday. Ryan has picked to have a bowling party and asks me everyday if he is 5 yet. I can't believe that I am going to have a 5 year old in a few days. More pictures of that to come next week. And I promise I will try and get them up next week. We thought that our lease was up in September here at our apartment. Well we found out that it is up in July the lease that we signed said that if you decided not to renew our contract that we would need to let the office know 60 days before we plan to move. So we have to be out in 59 days. That seems like a long time but it really isn't. It's already the middle of May and June is going to be a very busy month for our family. We really want to move back into the Townhouses that are in our ward. We are looking for a three bedroom. There are some available now but we can't move yet so that kind of stinks. I am trying to keep the mind set that every time that we have needed to move something has always worked out. I would love to find one of the houses in the townhouses to rent so we had a little bit of a yard but we will just have to wait a few more weeks and see what happens.
I am trying to get end of the year gifts done for Ryan's teachers. I am now taking care of my Grandpa on Wednesdays so that my Grandma can have a little bit of a break. My Gpa has Parkinson's pretty bad and is sucking the energy out of my Gma so I am happy that we are here to give her a few hour break. That and the boys seem to have fun. I am still working on Mondays and teaching the hair bow classes at Ribbons and Lace once a week. I try and work every other Saturday so we can have some extra money as well.
We are also in the process of declaring bankruptcy and yes we have looked into other options but this is the best for us. Between our house that is finally after 3 years going to auction and all of the medical bills it is going to work out better. It has been a very stressful time in our lives and hopefully when I finally turn all the paper work over to our attorney life will be better because I won't have to worry about it anymore.
Now for the not so fun part about me. I have had NO ENERGY at all lately. Here is the back story on how all of this started. I went to a new OBGYN a few months ago because I had heard good things about him from a few different people and they had told me that he is hard to get into so try and become an established patient before you get pregnant and you will have a better chance to have him as your doc. NO I AM NOT PREGNANT NO DO I PLAN TO BE IN THE NEAR FUTURE!!!!! I told him that I get HORRIBLE MIGRAINES during my placebo week. I was on the ring for birth control. I loved the ring by the way. He told me that the migraines are because of a dip in estrogen. So he told me instead of doing the week of a period than put my new birth control in just not to have my period anymore just to put a new ring in right away. It worked out really well for three months. I didn't have a period for three months and along with that no migraines either. But then I forgot to get my ring ordered and I was a couple days late with the new one. I started bleeding and have been bleeding for over a month and a half now. Not just normal period bleeding either like bleeding when I was pregnant with Emily bleeding not bad enough where I had to get the diapers again but lots and lots of clots. I made an appointment to change my birth control because it is now $80.00 a month and I just don't have the money for that. So they put me on an actual pill. I don't do good with pills. The last time I was on a pill was when I was 15 when I kept having cyst issues and it gave me morning sickness. Sure enough this pill has done the same thing. I feel nauseous all the time some days are better than others but it has not been fun. At least when I feel like this when I am pregnant I can deal with it because I know at the end I will end up with a cute bundle of joy but I know that isn't happening right now. With the nausea and all the bleeding I totally feel like I did with Emily. I have called the Dr. and they really don't know whats going on either. I have been trying not to think about it but the thought is always in the back of my head. Granted I am not pregnant my body doesn't have a baby growing in me like last time so I am not so sick. But I keep thinking how long is it going to take how long before I am back in Cardiac ICU fighting for my life again. I know that I shouldn't have those thoughts but I guess that I am scared. I have always been low on Iron and now I am super low and I have no energy to do anything. But somehow I do because life has to go on. I still need to work and there are still therapy appointments to get to and soon there will be swimming everyday. The lack of sleep from worrying about all of this is finally taking its toll on me. I usually go to bed around 8-9 and leave Blaine to deal with the kids then I am awake around midnight when Blaine finally comes to bed and then I can't shut my mind off. Friday I finally asked Blaine and his dad to give me a blessing. Gary anointed and then Blaine gave me the blessing. It was crazy because as soon as Blaine started the words he spoke completely comforted me. He said that my Heavenly Father knows that I am worried about what is going on in my body. He told me that it would eventually go away and to be comforted. When he said the words that my Heavenly Father knew that I have been worried about this I just about lost it. I could feel that I am not alone. Blaine has been very supportive in whatever we needed to do we don't have medical insurance right now so every time we go to the Doctor it is out of pocket but if I needed to go back in he told me to go. He also said in the blessing that I would start to seep better and ever since Friday night I have been able to sleep better and it has now been a day in a half since I have had bleeding problems. The nausea is still there. I think I will give that another month and then see if we need to change pills.
I told you this isn't the funnest post in the world but I feel better to let it all out.

Easter Egg Hunt

Our Easter egg hunt always happens in the Matthews front yard on Easter Sunday. That is the only time that we all can get together. We always have a TON of eggs and some have candy and some have toys since Cassie is a diabetic. There where so many eggs this year after we hid them all we just started throwing them on the grass to get them all out.Cameron got the idea real quick on how the Easter egg hunt thing worked.So excited that he got to keep an egghe got this shirt from his papa Bird for his birthday just in case you can't see what is says it reads "Screw Naps Lets Ride" yep its a Harley Davidson shirt I think he would love to go for a ride on Papa's bike.Cameron and his daddy chillin waiting for the other kids to come out to do the hunt. Do you think they are going to be hard to find?????Ryan always heads for the cars first. Some on the cars are better to find than others.
Back to those fun places in the back of papa's truck.There is nothing like gassy Easter EggsJust some cute pictures of my boysmy cute little Ryan showing off his loot
Cameron is so close to the waling thing. We figure in a few weeks and he may actually do it on his own.