Gila Valley Temple

A friend of mine on Facebook took this picture and I stole it off her page. I just thought that it was such a good picture.

Wednesday May 5th Blaine took the day off and we went with my grandparents up to Thatcher to see the Gila Valley Temple. We left the valley around 9:00 and our tickets where for 1:00ish. Surprisingly enough the boys did pretty good. Ryan loved going through the tunnel and going on the big bridge. He watched a couple of movies and was fine. Cameron did good only got mad once on the way up. Good news since we are going to dive to Colorado next month it gives up hope. Traffic was a little crazy but we got there around 12:30 and went to the chapel next door to see the movie that they have for you to watch before you went through the Temple. I went to the Snowflake Temple open house and stood in line FOREVER the ticket thing sounded dumb at first but it was very nice being able just to walk right in watch the presentation go through the temple and be done a lot sooner. My grandparents also went and brought a long a friend from there ward. Before you go into the temple they but little booties over your shoes to keep the carpet clean. I new Ryan wasn't going to go for that and as soon as he realized what everyone was in line for the freak out started. The little old lady put the shoes on my feet and next to her was an open chair so I sat Ryan down and pulled out a clean pair of socks from the diaper bag. I told the lady that they are clean and that he won't put the booties on he is Autistic and just to leave him alone. She did no problem no questions asked. It took Ryan a couple of minuets to calm down but he did. Cameron did pretty good until we got to the baptismal font. First Ryan thought that it was cool to see the big cows (I told them they where oxen) he said it was very pretty. Cameron wanted so bad to get in the water. Cameron loooooves the bathtub so he thought he had hit the jackpot with finding a huge bathtub he was wanting down and letting everyone in the room know it. Our Eternal Family (it was a little bright outside)

My gpa was in his electric wheelchair and did pretty good. There are some tight corners to maneuver around so that made life interesting. All in all it was a good trip and the boys did really good. I am so glad that Blaine was able to go with us not only because I don't think I could have handled both kids on my own but even though it wasn't a dedicated temple yet there is something special being in a temple with you entire family. That won't happen again for our family for a while or at least we go to another open house.My Grandparents

My Grandparents and there friend from the ward Pat
Ryan is such a good helper pushing gpa along

After the open house we went to a very yummy Mexican restaurant called Casa Manana. I wish they had one down here. I went to EA after I got out of high school. Man a lot has changed up there in the past 10 years go figure. The boys did really good waiting for our food. We had a little bit of a wait because they where so packed.
I think we went though 6 or seven bowls of chips but everyone stayed happy.Cameron playing patty cake with gma Bird.

Some fun cute pics

I am waiting for Cameron to wake up so I can go and tackle the pile of non fitting clothes in there closet. I figure while I am waiting I would post some cute pics from the past month or so.This is Ryan chillin after school. Since it has started to warm up he gets pretty pooped after school. He is defiantly turning into a big kid.Isn't that cute Ryan just lying around on his daddy. I would be careful Ry that could be a dangerous spot .We can't leave out Mr. Cameron he is pretending that he is eating. He only ate his puffy things though.Seems like most of the pics I have of Cameron is him eating. Oh well he's so dang cute most of the time.Ryan had water day at school a few weeks ago. (will post pics of that later) that morning I got him ready for school in his swimming suite. He kept asking me for an ice cream sandwich I said it was only 9:30 and you haven't eaten anything yet. So he asked for a corn dog. After he was done with that he said okay mom go get it. Go get what he said my ice cream sandwich you said I had to eat first. That is what I said so I gave it to him at least it wasn't the first thing that he ate.

So Much Is Happening

This is just a warning for any of you who read this. I turn my blogs into books and use them as journal type thing. This post is manly just for me so I can get things off my mind so read on if you don't mind talking about girl stuff and problems that girls go through.

So like this header says there is A LOT going on in my life right now. Some fun stuff is that we are getting ready to celebrate Ryan's 5th Birthday on Monday. Ryan has picked to have a bowling party and asks me everyday if he is 5 yet. I can't believe that I am going to have a 5 year old in a few days. More pictures of that to come next week. And I promise I will try and get them up next week. We thought that our lease was up in September here at our apartment. Well we found out that it is up in July the lease that we signed said that if you decided not to renew our contract that we would need to let the office know 60 days before we plan to move. So we have to be out in 59 days. That seems like a long time but it really isn't. It's already the middle of May and June is going to be a very busy month for our family. We really want to move back into the Townhouses that are in our ward. We are looking for a three bedroom. There are some available now but we can't move yet so that kind of stinks. I am trying to keep the mind set that every time that we have needed to move something has always worked out. I would love to find one of the houses in the townhouses to rent so we had a little bit of a yard but we will just have to wait a few more weeks and see what happens.
I am trying to get end of the year gifts done for Ryan's teachers. I am now taking care of my Grandpa on Wednesdays so that my Grandma can have a little bit of a break. My Gpa has Parkinson's pretty bad and is sucking the energy out of my Gma so I am happy that we are here to give her a few hour break. That and the boys seem to have fun. I am still working on Mondays and teaching the hair bow classes at Ribbons and Lace once a week. I try and work every other Saturday so we can have some extra money as well.
We are also in the process of declaring bankruptcy and yes we have looked into other options but this is the best for us. Between our house that is finally after 3 years going to auction and all of the medical bills it is going to work out better. It has been a very stressful time in our lives and hopefully when I finally turn all the paper work over to our attorney life will be better because I won't have to worry about it anymore.
Now for the not so fun part about me. I have had NO ENERGY at all lately. Here is the back story on how all of this started. I went to a new OBGYN a few months ago because I had heard good things about him from a few different people and they had told me that he is hard to get into so try and become an established patient before you get pregnant and you will have a better chance to have him as your doc. NO I AM NOT PREGNANT NO DO I PLAN TO BE IN THE NEAR FUTURE!!!!! I told him that I get HORRIBLE MIGRAINES during my placebo week. I was on the ring for birth control. I loved the ring by the way. He told me that the migraines are because of a dip in estrogen. So he told me instead of doing the week of a period than put my new birth control in just not to have my period anymore just to put a new ring in right away. It worked out really well for three months. I didn't have a period for three months and along with that no migraines either. But then I forgot to get my ring ordered and I was a couple days late with the new one. I started bleeding and have been bleeding for over a month and a half now. Not just normal period bleeding either like bleeding when I was pregnant with Emily bleeding not bad enough where I had to get the diapers again but lots and lots of clots. I made an appointment to change my birth control because it is now $80.00 a month and I just don't have the money for that. So they put me on an actual pill. I don't do good with pills. The last time I was on a pill was when I was 15 when I kept having cyst issues and it gave me morning sickness. Sure enough this pill has done the same thing. I feel nauseous all the time some days are better than others but it has not been fun. At least when I feel like this when I am pregnant I can deal with it because I know at the end I will end up with a cute bundle of joy but I know that isn't happening right now. With the nausea and all the bleeding I totally feel like I did with Emily. I have called the Dr. and they really don't know whats going on either. I have been trying not to think about it but the thought is always in the back of my head. Granted I am not pregnant my body doesn't have a baby growing in me like last time so I am not so sick. But I keep thinking how long is it going to take how long before I am back in Cardiac ICU fighting for my life again. I know that I shouldn't have those thoughts but I guess that I am scared. I have always been low on Iron and now I am super low and I have no energy to do anything. But somehow I do because life has to go on. I still need to work and there are still therapy appointments to get to and soon there will be swimming everyday. The lack of sleep from worrying about all of this is finally taking its toll on me. I usually go to bed around 8-9 and leave Blaine to deal with the kids then I am awake around midnight when Blaine finally comes to bed and then I can't shut my mind off. Friday I finally asked Blaine and his dad to give me a blessing. Gary anointed and then Blaine gave me the blessing. It was crazy because as soon as Blaine started the words he spoke completely comforted me. He said that my Heavenly Father knows that I am worried about what is going on in my body. He told me that it would eventually go away and to be comforted. When he said the words that my Heavenly Father knew that I have been worried about this I just about lost it. I could feel that I am not alone. Blaine has been very supportive in whatever we needed to do we don't have medical insurance right now so every time we go to the Doctor it is out of pocket but if I needed to go back in he told me to go. He also said in the blessing that I would start to seep better and ever since Friday night I have been able to sleep better and it has now been a day in a half since I have had bleeding problems. The nausea is still there. I think I will give that another month and then see if we need to change pills.
I told you this isn't the funnest post in the world but I feel better to let it all out.

Easter Egg Hunt

Our Easter egg hunt always happens in the Matthews front yard on Easter Sunday. That is the only time that we all can get together. We always have a TON of eggs and some have candy and some have toys since Cassie is a diabetic. There where so many eggs this year after we hid them all we just started throwing them on the grass to get them all out.Cameron got the idea real quick on how the Easter egg hunt thing worked.So excited that he got to keep an egghe got this shirt from his papa Bird for his birthday just in case you can't see what is says it reads "Screw Naps Lets Ride" yep its a Harley Davidson shirt I think he would love to go for a ride on Papa's bike.Cameron and his daddy chillin waiting for the other kids to come out to do the hunt. Do you think they are going to be hard to find?????Ryan always heads for the cars first. Some on the cars are better to find than others.
Back to those fun places in the back of papa's truck.There is nothing like gassy Easter EggsJust some cute pictures of my boysmy cute little Ryan showing off his loot
Cameron is so close to the waling thing. We figure in a few weeks and he may actually do it on his own.

Easter 2010

Now this post is only 3 1/2 weeks late but oh well. Easter fell on Conference weekend this year. Blaine had clipper on Saturday so we didn't see him much. My dad came down for Cameron's birthday a few weeks before and brought a bunch of stuff from Nana for Easter for the boys. So it was like a mini Christmas for them with all the stuff they got them and the few things that we got them. I really don't remember any Easters really until my dad married Trish (aka Nana to the boys). She had a tradition of having the Easter bunny leave a trail of goodies showing us where our baskets where. I did it last year for Ryan but he really didn't care I thought this year I would try it again. I was up with Cameron at 5am that morning so I thought after I got him back to sleep that I would make sure the Easter bunny came and left a trail for the boys. It worked out really well this year and Ryan actually got excited about it. This is what our house looked like.

This is what it looked like after the bunny came to our house. Just like Christmas Ryan didn't care who brought it he just liked what was sitting in his living room. If you notice there are three trails yep the bunny even brought something for daddy.

It was funny because normally when Ryan wakes up in the morning he comes and jumps in bed with us. I had heard him open his door and he didn't come running in. He went and looked around after a minuet or two he came in and said "mommy mommy come look." We went back to his door and he started to collect all the little eggs. The nice thing is Cameron was still asleep so there was no way he was going to choke on it. Ryan thought this was pretty cool because it looked just like a carrot but then I showed him it opened up and inside was a duck he thought it was neat.
Ryan goes to music therapy on Tuesdays and his therapist name is Ryan two so ry thinks that it is neat that Mr. Ryan has the same name as him. For Christmas Mr. Ryan got all of his students Alvin and the Chipmunks the squeakquel soundtrack. Now when we are in the care we either listen to Ry's preschool cd that one of his teachers made him ,last years primary program or this years primary program CD. Ryan doesn' t like the radio he likes his CD's. So I didn't think he was going to go for this but Mr. Ryan said now number 3 is his favorite. I turn on # 3 and it's Pink. No not the real Pink but the Chipetts singing pink. All the songs on the CD are songs that you can turn on the radio and hear the only thing is it's either the chipmunks or the chipetts singing them. So you can only imagine what it is like to listen to this cd allllll the time. Thanks Mr Ryan anyway Ryan doesn't really do movies all that much we tried to take him to a movie once and it didn't go over very well. Whenever he would see a preview for the chipmunk movie I would always say we should see that and he would always say ya so for Easter I decided that I would get it for him. Don't worry it's still sitting in it's package on our TV stand. Someday we will watch it.
Eventually Cameron woke up and he thought that it was pretty cool all of the stuff that he got. I think I am going to get in trouble for this one. I had to do it. Nope he doesn't look like a girl at all. I love the bruise on his forehead he is was still trying to get the crawling down now he was a pro and yes I need a girl don't you think.
Yes we did make it out to our little girls grave. The turquoise flowers where already there from her birthday in January but they haven't faded so I just added a couple of yellow ones for some more color. Ryan wanted to put the vase in all on his own sorry for the shadow but he was so excited to do it.

Blaine ended up having to help a little.

It looks great now I just wish the grass grew better.

Next post Easter egg hunt hopefully I can get that done before next Easter.

Cute Pictures

Most of these pictures Blaine took on his phone so some a better than others but they are so cute I just had to post them.

Ever since Cameron has had his tubes put in he has started to eat. We are so happy about that because if he didn't eat food by his 1st birthday they were going to have to run some not so fun tests. I was at work when Blaine sent this to me showing that he was eating all on his own.I just love those little blue eyes. After Desiree was baptized at the end of February we went to a huge park for food and fun. It was suppose to rain that day but Desiree prayed that it wouldn't rain so that we could all have a fun day. The nice thing was her prayers were answered because it didn't start to rain until after the party was over.Did you know that at Superstition Mall on the weekends and on holidays they have a train that you can ride. It is upstairs and will take you around half of the mall. It takes about 5 minuets because there are always people in the way but it was still fun. Ryan saw it and he had to do it. It was $3.00 for each person but he had a blast. The nice thing was they where the only people on it.Ever since the tubes where put in Cameron has gotten mobile. He is crawling all over the place and is now pulling himself up on everything. He is pretty proud of himself can't you tell.This is after Ryan has gone to bed Cameron gets really happy because he can play in peace. Ryan isn't there yelling at him telling him no to everything that he is doing.
This doesn't happen very often where Ryan is being nice to Cameron. Cameron has the same love of cars that his brother has. Cameron is trying to drive his cars on the side of the bathtub like his big brother.Now this really never happens. Ryan and Cameron are in there room and playing nice together. Ryan is actually telling him what the letters are here.Isn't this sad. He is watching everyone else outside ride bikes and he is stuck in the house. Poor poor Cameron.Now this is more like it.Super happy to be outside with all the kids.
Not ready for this big of a bike yet

Bunk Beds

A few weeks ago we got the boys some bunk beds. I know that Cameron isn't ready for a big boy bed yet but we got it anyway. It actually works out because we needed an extra bed for when my dad came. Ryan has been sleeping in a twin bed since he was 9 months old. He would not sleep in the crib but he would sleep in our bed. After we got the twin bed he slept fine. Cameron on the other hand sleeps fine in the crib and I am very happy about that. Ryan's bed was a double hand me down from one of Blaine's moms friend. We have been very grateful for it but it was falling apart and it was just time to get a new one.I had been doing a lot of research on bunk beds because I didn't really want to spend $3-400 on it. I found one at Walmart for $165 even though the web sight said $199. All the reviews I had read on it said that it was a really good bed. The main thing that the bed had to have was the ladder had to be attached it couldn't touch the floor. We got most of it put together before Ryan got home from school and he was super excited. Even Cameron loves it.Playing on Ryan's top bunk. Ryan actually looks like he likes Cameron at the momentSuch a happy baby