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I have decided not to make my blog private anymore. I hate have a private blog I have gotten to the point where I don't care if you don't agree with me that is life. I have gotten a lot of feedback and support on this blog over the years. This blog is mostly for me and to use like a journal. I am happy to share my life and every once in a while friends make comments and make me realize I am not alone and that everyone has good and bad days and that my kids are not the only ones who drive me crazy and can't live without them at the same time. So I am back and will need to be doing some major updating in the next few days. So please don't give up on me I will get caught up soon.

Ya I Know

Ya I know I am soooooooo far behind on posting. I promise to do better soon. We have been moving this past month and I haven't had a chance to catch up. You add on top of that me being sick it has not made it easy to get things done. Got everything out of our townhouse last night so I hope that I will have sometime soon to blog again.

Wildlife World Zoo

Right after school got out Rick and Ellen had to go and be a Ma and Pa for there stakes pioneer trek so they spent a few days over at Gary and Linda's house or since we are living here now as well our house.

Danny said that he wanted to take the girls to Wildlife World Zoo since he hasn't ever been there and neither had anyone else so we decided to go.
We left pretty early in the morning since it was a little ways away and it is June so it's not like it is cool outside. We got there about 10 minuets after the opened so we pretty much had the place to ourselves.

Dessie is such an animal person so of course she started trying to gather all the little ducks and peacock

Cameron loved that he was able to see all the animals.

These monkeys are the greatest things ever. They where very very loud and talked alot so all the kids thought it was great. This is a mommy with her baby and super cute.

This zoo is know for there white alligator

Like I said you get really close to the animals at this zoo. This panther was right above our heads this was all that was keeping us from him eating us.

This Rino was sooooo close to us. It was in it's house until we walked over and then he came out to see us. It was so close that you could touch it.

Cameron really liked the zebras and there was a nice baby one as well. The good thing about going in a lot of the babies are out of the nursery.

I was shocked when I saw Ryan touching the giraffe. That was HUGE I was so very proud of him.

By this time Cameron along with the rest of us where hot and tired. We went into the little snack area to get a snack and some water. Cameron was so hot and tired all he wanted to do was leave. Although the floor was dirty but it was cool.

Then it was time for the petting zoo. I wasn't sure how Ryan was going to handle this if at all and Cameron hasn't ever been to a petting zoo. I was very surprised to see that Ryan was okay and he was actually petting the animals and not freaking out.

Cameron loved the animals. It was so cute to see him and how sweet he was to all the animals.

I love this little face he had such a great time with the petting zoo

Ryan did really good with the animals

Ryan with Bambi

Ryry even touched a horseshoe crab was this my kid. I couldn't believe he was doing all of this.

In the gift shop they had these really cool fish tanks that you can go in the middle of.

All the kids all pooped out after a fun day at the zoo

Fun May Pictures

I couldn't leave out some cute pictures from May. Not only did we have the end of school but we ended up moving over Memorial Day back in with Blaine's parents until he is done with school and we know where we end up.

We went to the cemetery to put in some little lights that the boys got for Emily's grave. Only one actually made it there in one piece but that is okay.

Cameron is always so sweet when we go to the cemetery

I love these two boys and miss my little girl so much

Cameron loves playing with his shot glasses. Yep we start our kids out young. Blaine collects shot glasses from places where we go.

For Ryan's birthday he decided that he wanted to go to Red Robin for dinner even though daddy couldn't come. I felt bad but Ryan was still happy and we told them it was his birthday but not to sing to him.

Poor Ryan had to get a few fillings at the dentist. We had to give him really gross medicine and then wait an hour for it to take affect before they would take him back. All the drugged kids had to put on these vest and stay sitting he was not happy about the meds or the orange vest. It was a little weired taking him back to the doctor and not seeing him again till he was done. While he was out they did a teeth cleaning as well. Granted it is not like some of my other friends who has given there kids to something serious like heart surgery it was fillings and a teeth cleaning but still I was very happy when I got to go back and see him.

Me and my little man just hanging out

Before dinner one day we couldn't find Cameron. We where yelling around the house for him we even looked outside. A few minuets later this is what we found in the kitchen.

The weekend we moved I found Ryan out in Paps truck with all the hats that he could find on. At least he was staying out of trouble even if I couldn't find him for a while.

I love this little cookie face kid.

Playing racing game with his brother. (or at least that is what he thinks)

Cameron hanging out with dad one night after dad got home from school

It's so fun that Cameron likes to take pictures and he has such a great smile

Sorry

So my last post was harsh I know just know it wasn't directed at any of you current readers. It was to someone who no longer has access to my blog but I feel better now that I said it even though I would never have the guts to say it to the person who I am frustrated at.

Going Private

I really really really didn't want to go private and have avoided it for a few years now however it was in the best interest of our family and my sanity to be selective on who can read our blog. Keep in mind and I have said this many time before that this blog like many others is like a journal for me and I will write some of my feelings from time to time. Wither or not my feelings are correct or if you as the reader agree with them it is still how I feel. Sometimes I am being a girl sometimes it is nice to hear that I am not a lone with things that I go through and feel sometimes. With that being said let me clear a few things up that seem to be bothering some or I guess one for all I know but if they are feeling this way more of you who have read this blog may be feeling the same.
1st: Yes we have moved back in with my in laws and yes hell has frozen over because it was MY idea. Blaine is going to school and working full time and we would like to try and save money. Is it ideal no is it nice that we are able to do this YES. I not only have help with the boys at night but we have a yard again and my kids would live outside if I would let them. The last time we lived here it was under some pretty crazy circumstances. I was very sick and prego with Emily, Blaine was traveling to Sacramento once a month for about a week. I went into labor at 25 weeks and 5 days almost died and ended up loosing our daughter. A few months after that my father in law has a massive heart attack that I caught and ended up having a triple bypass. So ya that would cause some massive I guess you could call it tension. As long as no one tries to die this time around I think things will go a lot better.

2: Trying to get pregnant. Not that it is any ones business but after my miscarriage last July life hasn't been normal for me. The fallowing will have TMI so don't say that I didn't warn you if you would like to stop reading now.
After my miscarriage last July and BTW when I got pregnant last July I WAS on birth control so we wern't trying. I have not had a normal period. There are some months that I have nothing for two or three months. Then there are months that I bleed for 38 days have two days with nothing thinking that it has stoped then it starts right back up again. I I would bleed for 60 days with a few days off here and there. NOT FUN!!! plus I am Iron deficient so I get really weak and have no energy. People have been telling me for a while to go to the Dr and get it checked out.
I have been nervous to go see my OBGYN for my PAP because all of mine have come back abnormal for years had to have a colposcopy and they said that if I kept getting these that it was a sign that I was a pre-cancer thing. The fact that we don't have medical insurance on top of that made it rough. Yes I saved money and went to the DR.
He told me that I had PCOS. I thought it was funny since I have had three kids. He told me that I got lucky and that the reason they didn't catch it sooner is because I have been on birth control since I was 15. He told me that he could put me back on birth control but that wouldn't fix the problem so he would do some tests and then if those tests came back okay that he would start me on progesterone.
The reason they are putting me on progesterone is not to try and get pregnant right now. It is to kick start my hormones into working normally again. I am not on or am I going on Clomid in the near future. They are two very different meds. No I have not been on birth control for a year now and still have not gotten pregnant. Do we want another baby yes on some days am I ready for one right now yes on others the awnser is HECK NO! Are we trying to get pregnant right now NO! are we trying to fix me so I can have a normal life and when we are ready for another baby we will have one YES.
Once again what I have said before Blaine and I are in the same mind set that when another baby is suppose to join our family it won't matter what or if we are on birth control because we don't control it. We have gotten pregnant on birth control before and if Heavenly Father wants us to have that spirit we will have it. Just in case you are wondering this is that our plan is. Do we need your approval no, do we want to hear if you don't agree with us sure but do it in a nice way please.
So now that all of that is cleared up I will keep this blog private for a while if you have friends that want to read it send me there e-mail address. I have appreciated all the uplifting comments and support that I have gotten over the years. It is nice to know that I am not always alone with things that I have or am going through. I know my problems are nothing compared to others but when I put it on paper it makes me feel better.

From Mrs. Kupfer

I can't tell you how much I am going to miss Mrs. Kupfer. Ryan loves her so much and did so good in her class this year. Mrs. Kupfer made a little book for all the kids in the class so they can remember Kindergarten. It had pictures from different activities from the year as well as some of the poems that they learned.

Ryan has the funniest smiles sometimes

Ryan with Mrs. Kupfer and Randy the Rectangle book. His class wrote this book for a district wide contest and they won 1st place. Ryan's page said that Randy Rectangle likes to play with Hot Wheels. I know big surprise right and he even drew the car on the page.

It is so fun to see stuff that they do at school

I am pretty sure these pictures are from Fitness Day that the entire school did

The picture I think they did at the beginning of school. The bus behind him gets all the pictures of the kids on bus.

Mrs. Kupfer's class was in the school talent show. Ryan didn't want to get up and do it that night with the class but he knew the poems just as good as the other kids. So he was a helper with Mrs. Kupfer. The pictures I took that night didn't turn out so I was super excited when this one was in his little book.

This was the awards night when the kids won 1st place for Randy Rectangle. These where the kids that where able to make it that night. Amber was the one that went up on the stage to get the ribbon but it was still really cool when they announced Mrs. Kupfers Kindergarten class. There was a lot of cheering.

Some of the kids from the field trip to the dino museum

Painting in class

Brianna, Ryan and Zachary with a super cute bunny. I was surprised that Ryan would get this close to it. He came so far this year with stuff he wouldn't normally do.

Look at how happy that little boy is yep the grouch is mine. He doesn't like the hat thing so not surprised that he isn't sporting his turkey however when I picked him up that afternoon he had it on.

More fitness day pictures looked that they had a lot of fun but I was sick that day so I wasn't able to go

The kindergartners get to dress up and do a costume parade for the school. Ryan isn't big on dressing up so he was an army man

What a great catch

This was Brianna's, Rachel, Ryan and Sophi's plant

I asked Ryan what was his favorite poem that he learned and he said that it was Breakfast. I want to put his favorites on here so he can remember them so here we go



Breakfast

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall ,Humpty Dumpty had a great fall, all the kings horses and all the kinks men , had scrambled eggs for breakfast again.

Toothpaste

There is toothpaste on my fingers, there is toothpaste on my nose, there is toothpaste on the mirror in a hundred squiggly rows.

Every time I squeeze the toothpaste, it sprays north and west and south. There is toothpaste almost everywhere except inside my mouth!

Higglety Pigglety

Higgley pigglety pop! The dog has eaten the mop; the pig's in a hurry, the cat's in a flurry, Higglety pigglety pop!

Lazy Jane

Lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy Jane, she wants a drunk of water so she waits and waits and waits and waits and waits for rain.

Keep a Poem in Your Pocket

Keep a poem in your pocket and a picture in your head and you'll never feel lonely at night when you're in bed. The little poem will sing to you the little picture bring to you a dozen dream to dance to you at night when you're in bed. So keep a picture in your pocket and a poem in your head and you'll never feel lonely at night when you're in bed.

This year was a great year for Ryan. It was his first year at a "normal" school in a "normal" classroom and I know it wasn't always easy but he did such a good job and so did his teacher. It was fun for me to help out a few days a week in the classroom and get to see how he does things at least for a little bit during the day. It was fun to see the other kids as well and they would yell hi Ryan's mom. I hope that next year is just a fun. I know we will both miss Mrs. Kupfer but don't worry she isn't rid of us forever. Thank goodness for swimming lessons during the summer and hopefully Cameron will be able to be in her class in a couple of year. Thank you again Mrs. Kupfer for all your hard work.